just finished watching most parts of the concert on Youtube. and its was like..WOWW. even though im a huge (note emphasis), i'd learnt not to expect too much from her concerts based on my experience with her "live @ budokan 2004". but well, she proved me wrong this time. =)

it was technically amazing, the screens, the stage, the band, the vocals. it's really wow*3! wish there was an EXODUS/ULTRA BLUE tour, instead of this mix of old and new. her vocals seemed to have improved so much(!!), even in comparison from the lives earlier this year. she basically hit every note, and her voice sounded smoother and more varied.

everything's freakingly amazing. loved the new compositions of addicted to you and movin' on without you. and what can i say about the EXODUS part. esp devil inside. suuuuuugoi~!!the whole bell/red screen thing was so goth and devilish and u gotta admit it was DAMN well done. personally i hated the EXODUS album for ruining her image but im totally surprised how well it sounded live in this concert. owned the rest of the concert.

didn't think it was possible but watching it made me like Hikki more. definitely her best performance to date. 5*****

buy me this>>>

rotten.

what's rotten? my luck, my mood, my days and everything. first i would like to announce to the world that i'd just failed my driving test. i know it's normal to fail on the first try but i'm just so-so-so bu4 gan1 xin1 i'd failed by 48 points. 48 points?

YES, GODDAMNED 48 POINTS

don't ask me how i did that. worse than my jie on her first try (she got 42 and she took 5 times to pass. omg. wads gg to happen to me? =X) wonder what the hell came over me during the test man. why am i so bloody kan cheong. commiting mistakes i'd never done before in my life. i forget to release handbrake. i strike kerb twice during reverse parking. actually right from the first 1 minute of the test i'd already know that the tester gonna fail me. (yes thanks mr foo shou way. hope you are reading this. may you be blessed with disasters). and anw i'd got no mood to talk about driving anymore. driving sucks. i could haf avoided all these if i gotten my international license earlier. sucks.

and speaking about down on luck. never been worse. i'd been so terribly sick for an entire week. guess it all started from a supper trip from thomson road to taman jurong that'd brought me sore throat, flu, and persisting fever. hmm maybe all's accumulated over a 2 yr period of unhealthy life. and the doc charges me $45 for all these common med. yucks. and the thing is apart from the fever, i never recover from any of the other symptoms. and the sore throat and blocked nose get worse day by day.

and noe wad, something stupid happened yest. dunno whether your ears "popped" when you blow your nose very hard, as in the way you're tryin to clear a ear-block. think i blew my nose too hard over the week and my left eardrum hurt terribly. terribly terribly painful. and the fear of going deaf in one ear (like what happened to yvonne) really flooded me. it was 11:45pm and no choice. went to feed the doctor with another $75. goddamn after 9:30pm surcharge of $30. unethical doctor that looks into my ear for less than 10secs. and. it's just ear drum infection which i guess would clear up in 1-2 days with no threat of deaf.

im just so suay.

and im flooded with tonnes of work. dunno why all the assignments and projects love to pick the same deadline. weekend's burnt.

on the other hand, good things for this month:

1) i like my tutor for my communication class! she's nice, kind and most impt of all PRETTY! but she likes to pick on me to answer questions particularly (cos her hubby shares my name, she told me..) anw, mrs daisy teh you're the best and happy teacher's day!

2) found and fell in love with BLOOD+.

3) wrote my first malay essay.

4) close friends are always around to care and share.

maybe i'd been faking it all along. no. no orgasm keep ur thots straight.

seriously i know i'm not the smarty pants/genius/genie boy or whatever my uni friends like to call me. even back in primary school, even thou i'm always one of the tops in the level (pardon me my primary school is really a very lousy school with 3 classes of EM3), i seriously feel that the other top 2 (rivals? that's michael and weiliang) are hell damn smarter than me. look at what they're reading at that age. and what kind of science crap they're pouting about. i don't understand. but the school place me in the best class. teachers have high expectations of me. mom and jie pinned high hopes on me. i simply can't let them be disappointed. and i don't want to see myself fall from that spot.

and i guess that's when i start to "jia zhuang" i'm a smart ass.

i'll brag about getting first class honours. i'll brag that i'll be thrashing your CAPS.

but i know it's all fake. closer friends know that i'm always shunning competition. that's why i left chemical engineering in the first place. there's too many of them out there and i know i can't cope. they'll make me realize i'm stupid and it just take a few months to shatter my self-portrayed image of being smart. i don't like it. i don't like to feel stupid. i dislike competition and don't make me repeat myself. i know i can't handle it

and again i'm faced with the decision in accountancy. to double specialize in banking and finance or not. if you're reading about this for the first time, double spec is taking a second major apart from the original accountancy, and i guess banking and finance is one of the hardest double spec you can find. at first i feel that i could cope. and it'll be cool to specialize in that hoping it would open doors to the banking sector for me in the future. but soon i'd learnt from someone the cut off is CAP 4.40 or somewhere around there. it's like omg. i din expect that. and i started to back off. i'm telling everyone i'm going to drop it right after the sem starts. i know i can't handle it.

but yest night i was thinking. how many times had i backed off from something without even trying. without even trying at all. thinking i 100% won't make it. knowing(?) i would fail miserably. 

i think this sucks. i hate this "i know i can't handle it" shit. since when had i become so unconfident of myself and pessimistic. if i'm going to carry on like this in my life, shunning all challenges and taking the easier way out, it'd really be wad you call "gou3 qie3 tou1 sheng1" in chinese. and what's going to happen to my dream of startin my own business in the future. i guess there's a high chance i would choose the easier way out and say things like "i guess i would stay on with my job". and in 2039 maybe i'll have a G.L.O.R.I.O.U.S retirement party.

yucks.

ok enuff. lets try the double spec for starters. i think i can do it.

jolin's in town for these 3 days! haha, and i'd went to see her for the past 2 days. omfg. i feel like those sec sch pple chasing stars in the past. *faints* lol. but she's so-so-so pretty! =D maybe alittle too fair this time round ba. remembered she used to be a little darker in the past, with the brown curly locks so she look kinda like a beach babe. now the dark fair and fair skin kinda makes her more gothic. still very pretty man. qing1 cheng2 nu3 shen2!!

the first day was at zouk. haa thanks limin for the free passes! the queue's alrite ba. i went around 30 mins before 7:30 and i think i'm among the first 100s. haa but guess much of the pple around aint jolin's fans~ cos the pple around are like sayin they just came cos they happen to get the passes from buying RAZR v3x. and she's late...late late late. came around 8:30pm and my legs ache like shit la. but yay i'm within 2metres from her and manage to get many nice picts of her. shall share with u all cos i'm not giam siap. haha.

but the 933 DJ PROMISED that as long as you're within those admitted into the barried area u're GURANTEED a signature on your disc. this one i'm qt sian diao cos toooo many people. so me and my jie's just standing behind waiting for the session to start. and the queue's kinda f*** up. the queue aint moving while those not queueing are disappearing fast. singaporeans suX. so we went up front n snap picts of her while she's signing. but my camera's qt crappy. haa. so forget about those long distance picts. and a very irritating guy keep placing his hp camera on my head and IM SUPER PISSED so we kinda scold him and move away. and that's when the security starts CLOSING THE GATE. PHEW! heng we squeezed into LAST 5. the others end up quarreling there and im not too sure of the outcome. wish them luck!

and tada! authentic jolin's signature on authentic disc! =D =D =D

and she spoke with me and smile at me!! haa a 1 sec smile and a "xie xie" *melting...*

maple story. i resisted playing it no matter how hard jinye jio-ed me to. but in the end i still fall prey to that game during my internship. and i was kinda coaxed to play it by a trio of 29, 28 and 23 yrs old, one who has already wedded 3 yrs ago and now who's ignoring her husband. OMG.

that game's cute la! got 4 races..Bowman, Mage, Thief and Warrior. haa but Warrior's so UNGLAMOROUS. so i chose Thief, and hoping to advance to Assasin and finally Hermit. here's a pict of one..so cute rite??!!

but arhx. i must say that game is ultra time consuming. still remember me spending an entire night at weiheng's place to level up from lvl 18 to lvl 19. dunno how many hours spent on that game just standing there and shooting mushrooms and snails. haa i give up!! im too old for this kinda RPG that needs commitment. really wonder how did i manage to train 6 characters to around lvl 70 and lvl 90 in diablo 2 during my jc days. i must be real mad then. =X yepp so aft giving up i jio that jay online and pass her all my items till my character is naked and boo~ uninstalled the game from my comp and im a maple no more. =)

oh ya ya i must tell you all manx. there're perverts in maple. cos my nick's "slutb3ar" rite. got this guy keep coming and ask me. "are you a slut? are you a slut?" "if i give u these items would u tell me more about your body?"

I MEAN COME'ON. so what if i tell you? can you see/ touch it? and he can actually go on and say "pls pls, im really very desperate. i wan to know alot more about girls" PUKE. haa but no i wun lose anything so i ask him to show me the items before i say anything. and crap la. his items sucks. 'd got dozen of them. and he was so desperate that he wanted to give me his account of lvl 43 mage. wa at this point i really despise him man. and guess wad i did?? haa..i go the main chat and type:

"I GOT SEXUALLY HARRASSED BY ______. DON't TALK TO HIM!! HE's A PERVERT WHO'LL ASK ABOUT GIRLS' BODY!!"

he immediately quit the game man. haha.

ok enough about maple.

and ya today i was playing badminton with my sis till we got damn thirsty. normally we bring two $1 coin to buy cans of 100PLUS but last week the mama shop aunty tell me they sell a 1.5Litre for $2. its like same price but much worth it. so this week i happily brought down $2 and went to the counter with the bottle. but the aunty's not there. and the indian uncle show me a pissed off face like i'm trying to steal something from him. den i said last week the aunty told me it's $2 so what's wrong? and guess what that fucker said? he said i'm a LIAR. a BLOODY LIAR! FUCK U manx. i was so damn super pissed he call me a liar for 20cents??! god damn him. and i ask him to scan and show me. it showed $1.70 can? and i was like "YA WAD NOW?" den he said wait and he key in some buttons and the price becomes $2.20. ASS. i dunno what the shit he punched in. but boh bian i'm seriously damn thirsty so i get 2 cans of 100PLUS instead. but i throw the coins on the counter and storm off not even letting him scan and was diao-ing him all along. bitch.

AND MIND MY WORDS. I DID NOT LIE. I WILL NEVER BUY FROM THAT SHOP AGAIN BLOODY INDIAN CHEATER BUGS. EXHORBITANT PRICES!

that shop is at Jurong West Central 1 Block 679 right under the multi-storey carpark. don't visit that shop if u do not enjoy being cheated thanks everyone.

ok a blog is fun to bitch about others and i miss doing so. haha. and sz is happily using the blog as a threat to 'gong zhu yu shi' the scandals and ugly sides of people so i'd better let him know that i haf a blog too and i can bitch about him as and when i like. haha.

omg. the supposedly LONG and NEVERENDING holiday is more than 66.66% over and i kinda feel i'd wasted it. apart from all the playing and going out i guess there's 3 main thing that happened in this holiday: internship, world cup and maple. from wot i can rmbr lah. =)

was i silly or wise to take up an internship in year 1 that i do not know. but apart from the meagre $600 monthly pay i guess everything else's actually quite fun. =) interned at B.Braun Internation (haa nah not the coffee-maker and shaver company thou we actually used a BRAUN coffee maker there. lol), a medical disposable company which i supposed is a rather big one by looking at their scale of operations and the invoices value where GST can be like 200K per receipt. tsk tsk. thanks catherine for teaching me everything she noes. and ya the sales team which include pple like Roy, Christina, Jay (it's a female name??!!?!), Mabel (and not Maple..), Daniel (sorry germany lost. HAHA!) and who else..erm like Chong which i only met twice ba. guess these r the real fun people of the office. kinda makes me feel like i shouldn't be in Accounting becos pple in Finance Dept is SO BORING.

initially tot it would be a just-come-and-go internship. but i guess it's one of my happiest work exp. all the dinner sessions at sentosa and ktv session are so fun. thanks jay the organiser man. haha u all should know this woman. a 29 yr old joking machine. her straight forward and no mercy replies are a killer also. and haha. FLIRTING machine. lost counts of how many guys she'd hooked in this 2 months. really nice knowing ya!! haha too bad i don't think you can ever find my blog. and stupid christina for introducing me to maple. *bish* k la im not talking about the work there cos its boring. but the building is really worth mentioning. for people who never been to Park View Square before i think you all are sua ku. ITS GOD DAMN PRETTY! with statues of Dante, Chopin, Churchill and 10+ others to greet ya in the morning and gold plated ceiling the place is like a palace. not to mention the angel-dressed angels that'll FLY (via wiring) to fetch u wine in the ballroom. droolz.

I MISS THAT BUILDING!! T_T

omg. im only 1/3 thru. guess i'll save MAPle for another day ba. hmm. world cup. the teams i support all fail to make it to even the Semi-Finals. England (sigh) Argentina and Spain. still qt angry with Rooney for his groin-stepping and shooving off Ronaldo (I HATE U RONALDO) incident. but aiya he's still young way to go man. =) and Beckham. poor beckham. so shuai but so weak even thou his crosses and freekick are so deadly. haha remember to drink more water next time k. but guess there won't be a 4th world cup for him ba. meanwhile i can keep my england jersey and mourn for u all for a month. but i wun be paisei to wear it. everyone's a loser other than italy. =)

and with the Matarazzi incident and the 4th referee judging based on replays kinda made italy looks loser-ish also!! haha. and france demanding a REMATCH! omg this is so exciting. if there's really a rematch for the world cup finals!!! first time in history manx!! =) hope france wins the case!! but i seriously think it's damn sick for Matarazzi to call Zidane's wife "prostitute of the terrorists". that's seriously GROSS la. if im zidane i would get angry as well. >:|

haha and choosing a RED card retirement instead of the GLORIOUS moment kinda made Zidane more popular than ever. headlines everyday and how long ago was World Cup?! almost a week!! waaa.

kkz this is getting way too long im stopping.

AND JOLIN's COMING!!!!!! Wee!

after much shifting from address to address, i'd finally decided to shift back to my old blog space and i'm here to stay. whether or not bitches find this site is not my business anymore.

okay updates. this sem sucks. accounting 1, financial management, marketing and worse of all stats (f u..i hate u..) it's like what the hell 3 out of 4  of my core modules are heavily calculation based. for someone who'd gotten F9 for A.Maths repeatedly and struggled with C.Maths all these subjects are killers. well wadever. this sem i put in qt alot of effort so shall just see how things turned out. sem 2 is over. and YES..year 1 is over! =) it's like completing primary 2 for primary school manx. perfect. 2 more years to go and i'll be AWAY FROM BOOKS forever.

little happened for the past months. i still think about the girl i like(d) at times and my house is still painted in pink. my fishies died and now the aquarium houses a hermit crab. my dad keeps getting into accidents and it's worrying me. my mom still "niam" me everyday and my sis is constantly looking for a job hop. my studiotraffic crashes and the money is gone. government pays me S$900 for progress package but i still don't like PAP. the whole of western singapore shall have no chance to vote. i'd gotten a new pair of specs that's white and pple say it makes me look like the muds. my favourite pencil is destroyed in my FM exam and it got scattered throughout the exam hall. i'd lost touch with some friends and made new ones. life is still life and i am still me.

whatever.

there's seriously qt little i can recall of what happen this year. manx. i'm just reaching 22 and my memory begins to fail on me.

whatever.

but i remember watching 2 good shows this year.

V for Vendetta (starring Hugo Weaving & Natalie Portman)

dunno how many of ya out there manage to catch this show. the trailer fails to impress me and i thought this is another Zorro wannabe. but it's a NO NO NO. "V" is a highly ambitious and extremely engrossing film and seriously a daring picture to be admired. let me see if i can find a short description of the film on the net. dah, here it is:

"Set against the futuristic landscape of totalitarian Britain, V For Vendetta tells the story of a mild-mannered young woman named Evey (Natalie Portman) who is rescued from a life-and-death situation by a masked vigilante known only as "V." Incomparably charismatic and ferociously skilled in the art of combat and deception, V ignites a revolution when he detonates two London landmarks and takes over the government-controlled airwaves, urging his fellow citizens to rise up against tyranny and oppression. As Evey uncovers the truth about V's mysterious background, she also discovers the truth about herself – and emerges as his unlikely ally in the culmination of his plot to bring freedom and justice back to a society fraught with cruelty and corruption. "

reading this review looks kinda erm. scattershot to me and im not sure how this will read to u. on the whole it's an A+ movie and im really itching to see it for a second time! (thanks weiheng for recommending)

Fearless (starring Jet Li)

a must watch! it's really damnnnnn nice. basically it's about the life story of a chinese kung fu fighter who's been vying for the "tian xia di yi" theme till he finally won it at the expense of losing everything he has. this show is split into 2 major part, the first part featuring the cocky Huo Yuan Jia in his younger days and the 2nd part when he finally understood that fame is nothing and everyone shud "yi wu hui you" oh man my memory is failing me again. i cant even remember the words. but it's really damn nice and damn touching. and jet li rocks in this show. i feel like watching it over again this holiday. and erm. im downloading it now.

Finally Woken (by jem)

ok wad a mouthful. i think this is getting too long even for not bloggin aft 2 months. tataz.

i think 2 months of refraining from blogging has kind of cleared the traffic here and i feel more comfortable with pinning down some thoughts. you might ask why i don't just delete this entire shit if i mind so much. i just cant bear to la, fine?

just feel like writing some things. my friend's dad passed away yesterday. i really feel very sorry for him for losing his dad at such a young age. not exactly young, there'll people who lose their dads before they know how to walk. but who wouldn't want their dad to live to a ripe old age. unless you're some unfillial bum that curse ur dad to death day and night hoping to inherit his wealth. if so you're a bastard and i believe bastards don't read what i write because they're losers. i was thinking of going down to the wake but i don't know what am i suppose to do there. im just darn bad at consoling people. even hafta ask a friend what should i message him.

"my condolences, i'm so sorry for your loss.." is the answer i get.

i can tell you. IF my dad pass away and you come and give me this shit i would feel WORSE. much WORSE. it's my DAD. it's not some item like handphone and wallets which you can afford to buy a new one if you have the money. it's someone who had given life to you and been taking care of you since birth. it's someone who drives so hard day-n-night to make sure i can make my way to university and be a person recognized by the society (i'm not saying non-uni grads aint recognized or wad.)

i cant imagine how i would feel if either of my parents pass away. so in the end i nv send the message. and i decided not to go to the wake as well. just contribute to the bai jin. shugs la i'm a wimp.

back to the topic of i dunno how i would feel if my parents pass away. you know i've never shed a tear during any wakes of my relatives. partly because they're more distant and stuff. that's in the past. i think recently i've become more emotional. i began to shed tear (no 's') during sad movies. maybe i've went through more in life. i think. but i think it would really be damn WEIRD n SAD when someone living with you cease to do anymore. it's like everytime you walk pass the room. he's not here. and he will never be here anymore.

and now i'm really quite scared. u know. there's like a curse in my father-side. my paternal side or whatever. it's like the guys never live pass 60 yrs of age. my grandpa died at 60. my great uncle died at 60. my mom told me a relative in china died at 60. and my youngest uncle died at 47. 60. 60. 60. it's damn scary. and my dad's turning 59 this year. i pray nothing happens. and i dowan to be superstitious. he'll be just fine. he's a good man.

anyway i think my mom would be very happy if my dad pass away. and vice versa. they're like mad dogs shouting at each other everyday and it's driving me mad. but i still love both of them. provided they're not together. their presence in a single room always make me feel very tense like some war is going to break out and i don't know what to do about it. last time when they start to quarrel i will join in and shout louder back and think i am very fierce. that's KIDDISH. now i'd known better to shut my mouth up and hide in my room. i'd given up. i just ren ming that i'd got a broken family. and im very surprise that i never end up as some ah beng dropping out of secondary 2.

i think i wrote too much and i'm drifiting off. whatever it is. i think we should really treasure our family while they're still here with you. afterall they're the closest.

cheers for good health and a blissful family. =)

yea its the end.

after much hemming and hawing, i'd decided to put this blog on hiatus. for. i dunno how long. it maybe for awhile or forever. i don't think i'll be deleting this blog. i'd she3 bu4 de2 after putting in so much effort in the layout and colors. someone_SPEAKS will still exists but i don't think i'll still post anything. why? the simple answer is that i want to take a breather. i want to spend my time on more constructive things. i want to read more. i want to mug hard. i want to do everything. and all along i've been unable to give my blog full attention. so i'd better quit. before it becomes a chore. and before i get numb.

also. i regret to say this blog has caught too much attention from my friends. to an extend that i am unable to speak freely regarding what's on my mind. not that i am saying i regret giving any of you out there who noes me and read this blog regularly or whatever. its just. ugh i dunno how to say. and the reason for the existence of this blog ceased to exist. or at least i hope i can say so.

really thanks for visiting over the past 6+ months. and everyone happy 2006~